aririn

Friday, February 28, 2003

My bf saw a ghost outside my house. I told my neighbors upstairs and they said they knew that there is a ghost here O_o;; They said, one midnight, their micromave fell and nothing was touching it. And then one night several appliances and wall clocks stopped working. My dogs haven't sensed anything yet so far, and I truly hope they won't.

If you guys went to my pitas blog and wondering why I made a copy of the same story, it's because I wanna keep the story for myself too XD I'll probably be doing this sometimes.
ari 12:16 AM

Sunday, February 16, 2003

Valentine.... my bf and I spent more time driving looking for a restaurant where we could actually eat without waiting for 4 hours because all the restaurants were full. It wasn't memorable nor romantic, but at least we're spending time together. And he said the "L" word for the second time XD Well, that was because he was trying to make me feel better about my granma.
ari 10:22 PM

Saturday, February 15, 2003

So I decided not to go home. I'm not gonna make it to the funeral. I will go home when I get a vacation and pay my respects to her grave. Surprisingly, I'm doing very fine right now. I don't feel even a pinch of sadness. I think it's because I'm so far away, and not affected by my other family members who I know are very sad right now. And also I know her time is up, and we just have to move on.

I went out with my bf's friends today. Supposedly to see the chinese new year parade, but as soon as it started, it rained. So we didn't see anything much. But we spent hours walking around chinatown before the parade. Then we met up with a couple more of my bf's friends. One of them, Johnie, was gonna meet his blind date (they met online, yay! XD) so he couldn't stay for too long. But he was giving out too much info about his date so we decided to 'spy' on him. So we went to the restaurant he was going and saw the girl. We also left a note on his car signed by all of us. It was fun. He didn't even know we were there, which is good, otherwise we might've ruined his date. I had a lot of fun today.
ari 11:31 PM

Friday, February 14, 2003

My granma just died yesterday. I'm thinking of going back to indo for the funeral. But I'm scared. Scared of what's going to happen. I'm scared of breaking down. I'm scared of the pressure my family's gonna put on me. I'm even scared of the possibility of not being able to come back here. I'm doing fine right now. I cried a little bit, but that's it. I don't feel sadness overcoming me or anything. I can even still watch the dvd I rented last week. But as soon as I talked to my mom this morning, I cried. And I feel like crying everytime I talk with someone about my granma. How can I be so unemotional when I'm alone and extremely emphatic with other people? And that's one of the reasons why I'm scared of going home and see my family. Because I know they're gonna be to sad and it's gonna affect me so much that it's gonna hurt. And I don't want to be hurt. I'm so selfish.
ari 12:18 AM

Monday, February 10, 2003

Minmei, I told you I attract the undesireables too... A guy blatantly hit on me today. It was kinda funny coz at first I didn't know he was talking to me. I was just walking to the subway station this morning. Then this guy suddenly called "hello!". I ignored him at first coz I didn't know he was talking to me. He called again and I looked over and saw this guy. He wasn't good looking at all XP The he asked "how's your new year?" I said "it was okay" "are you going to the parade?" (chinese new year parade) "maybe" "well, if you wanna go, let me know" O_o;;;;;;
Then he walked to his car that was parked on the side of the street and I kept walking. When his car passed by, he honked at me O_O;;;;; Guys are funny. I hope I won't see him again..
ari 8:56 PM

Sunday, February 09, 2003

I'm having doubts about my bf again. I keep questioning him in my head if he really loves me. Because it just seems like he doesn't find me attractive. I never thought of myself as beautiful, but I'm not bad looking either. Some guys even thought I'm cute. But my own bf doesn't seem to think that way. After a while, I noticed that he thinks dark skinned girls with nice bodies are really attractive. I'm the total opposite of what he thinks is pretty. I have to admit of being a hypocrite though. When we first started going out, I told him I don't like to be complimented by people/guys I hardly know. But now that he's my bf, sometimes I just need assurence that he's still attracted to me. He never makes me feel attractive.

I guess, if it's not my looks, it's prolly my personality, right? Wrong. I told him I used to be obsessed with some final fantasy games (6 & 7), and he thinks THAT'S attractive -_-;;;; He likes me because I play video games since there aren't that many girl/women gamers. Hmph.
ari 11:59 AM

Saturday, February 08, 2003

My friend Tomo came to SF with his gf. They arrived on wednesday and they just left today for Lincoln, NE (why nebraska???? O_o;;). Too bad I was too busy to hang out with them. So I just had dinner on friday night, and took them to the airport today. It was pleasant, except that I felt kinda awkward coz I can't speak japanese anymore. So I keep speaking english to them and they speak japanese to me ^^;; I'm so embarassed.... So I just kept silent most of the time. Blaahh... if only I could keep practicing my japanese.
ari 6:39 PM

Monday, February 03, 2003

Ufufufu... Looking at the entry below... I wrote "I unconsciously look around for him..", supposed to be "subconsciously", right? @_@;;; It sounds like I'm fainting and looking around at the same time XD;;

I'm still sick. I even left work early today (yay XD). It's not that bad, except that my eyes is constantly teary and my nose is running. At least I don't have sore throat like last time. My bf picked me up from work and stayed with me for the afternoon. But left around 7.30pm coz he's scared he's gonna get sick too. He's weaker than I am XP
ari 8:37 PM

Sunday, February 02, 2003

I think I'm getting sick.. First canker sore, now my nose is running and my throat's starting to hurt again. I just got over a cold a couple weeks ago too -_-;;;;;

I think I've talked about my crush (A) before. It was a long time ago, I think before I got together with my bf. He used to come over bringing print jobs or just to chat with my boss. My coworker (B) told me that he's a player. But I said if he asks me out, I'd go out just for the heck of it. Well, it never happened and I officially dated my bf.
Then, several days ago, I was waiting for the subway and somebody nudged my shoulder. It was A. So we sat together and talked on the way. He was nice. And the thought of going out with him entered my mind again. But later on I mentioned that I have a bf XP
After that day, everytime I go to the subway station, I unconsciously look around for him before settling down and wait for the subway to come ><; I love my bf and wouldn't cheat on him, but I've had this crush/infatuation for a long time, it's bothering me.
ari 10:13 AM

Saturday, February 01, 2003

Yesterday was a bad day, just like the day before -_-; It was really really busy. I hate customers who don't plan ahead and flood us with rush jobs. I was so frustrated, I even pissed my co-worker off. We'll see if he's gonna talk to me on monday.

I have a huge canker sore.. it hurts.. T_T
ari 11:01 AM