Monday, March 31, 2003
Being in a relationship has it's ups and downs. And it does get bothersome sometimes. But it's nice to have somebody who cares about you when you're sick, even if you need to ask him first ^^; Everytime my bf says 'I love you', it makes me feel wonderful. And, Cat, It's better to experience a relationship when you're young. You'll be better off when you're actually looking for your soulmate later on. About the cute guy.. go for it! XD
ari 6:57 AM
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
I had a very depressing conversation with my brother today. He was telling me how my mom told him that I've been making her sad with my attitude. I almost never call home and when she calls I always to cut the conversation off because I have to do something. FYI, I DO have to do something when she calls, and it IS hard enough for me to cut the conversation off with her coz she just frikkin won't stop talking for half an hour straight. Being on the phone with my mom is like listening to a really boring talk radio. I never get to say anything, and she thinks I don't listen to her. She even thinks I lie when I say I gotta go. What hurts me more though, it that she goes to my bro and tell him all the bad stuff about me. I don't need my own mother badmouthing me to my own brother!
I haven't been in a good relationship with my mother for a long time. And she knows it. And that's part of the reason why I don't call home too often. I don't understand why she even wants to talk to me, or rather, talk to herself with me as an audience.
My bro said she's just lonely and she wants a mother-daughter relationship with me. Well, shit. Everytime she talks to me, it's always about my stupid uncle, my dad's company, and anything she could think of how to conver me into going home and join the family company. And I can't particularly call that a 'mother-daughter' kinda talk.
This whole thing's making me depressed now. I don't know what to do, or what I should say to her. I'm just really, really tired and my tears are dry.
And this stupid cough's still plaguing me...
ari 11:24 PM
Been sick for a while now. Coughing and coughing... -_-; My bf won't even come close coz he's scared of getting sick. He always gets sick because of me. But it also makes me sad though. It shows just how much he cares. Like he only picks me up from the station to take me home only when I ask him to. Otherwise, he'll just call and ask how I'm feeling. I mean, him showing he cares is limited to words only. And he only does things for me because I ask him to. I whined about that last weekend to him. I hate myself for being to weak and dependent. But come on, I'm sick and he won't even offer to take care of me, or buy me medicine or something. I wanna be spoiled when I'm sick, dammit ><; Can't even get that from my own bf...
ari 6:57 AM
Wednesday, March 12, 2003
Damn it's a busy day today. The people who called in sick yesterday, called in sick again today. I'm really really tired. But my boss noticed my hard work and gave me a $500 bonus. Yay. I'd rather get another raise, but I won't say no to money.
My kitchen floor is dirty. I think my dogs had been outside walking in the mud and came in with dirty feet. And of course, there's some stains on the carpet too. Blah. I don't even have time to clean my house and my dogs are making it dirtier.
I dyed my hair again. I had it highlighted before, but it didn't really show up because me hair is too black. So I tried highlighting it again today. It still doesn't show as much as I wanted it to be. Maybe it'll look better after my hair's dry.
Strengths and weaknesses? It depends on the situation. Is it for an interview? Me.. hardworking, efficient, attentive to detail. Weakness.. If there is any, I'll work it out and get better. That's gonna be my answer in an interview.
ari 12:07 AM
Friday, March 07, 2003
My bf emailed me this picture and wrote that he missed me. hehe *blush* Well, I just posted it for cat coz it's a pic of a kitty XD
ari 9:29 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2003
Another one of my coworkers (E) whom I like to hang out with, got a gf. T, who used to like me is now officially dating one of our clients too. I'm happy for them coz they seem miserable alone and their gfs made them a lot happier. But now I have nobody to hang out with ;_; In a way, I am jealous of their gfs. Oh well, I need more friends.
ari 6:27 AM
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